tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3642911795913602262024-03-14T05:28:54.575-04:00The Write BunchWell, our goal of daily posts hasn't worked out, and one of our bloggers never actually blogged, and another retired, but we're here and we hope you stop by--and if you want to contribute, let us know.The Write Bunchhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03727478282179080964noreply@blogger.comBlogger290125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-364291179591360226.post-7238240707090527582009-12-22T15:05:00.005-05:002009-12-31T12:06:01.774-05:00WC: Van Gogh quote<span style="font-size:130%;">From a letter to his brother Theo, January 1884<br /></span><span style="font-style: italic;font-size:130%;" ></span><blockquote><span style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(0, 0, 153);font-size:130%;" >. . . find</span><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);font-size:130%;" > <span style="font-style: italic;">things beautiful</span> as much as you can, most people </span><span style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(0, 0, 153);font-size:130%;" >find </span><span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153); font-style: italic;">too little beautiful.</span><br /></span></blockquote><span style="font-size:130%;">You can read all of his letters online at the fabulous <a href="http://vangoghletters.org/">vangoghletters.org.</a> The site includes translations, notes, facsimiles, and more.<br /><br />I'm reading a few a day.</span>Wendy Casterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02736636055295848483noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-364291179591360226.post-89049118164203371402009-09-10T09:55:00.003-04:002009-09-10T10:04:50.010-04:00WC: My Condolences, Whoever You AreGetting dressed this morning, I had half an ear on the radio. The report was about an explosives expert in the Marines who had been killed in Afghanistan after two tours of duty in Iraq. I had my usual mixed response<span style="font-weight: bold;">:</span> sadness for him and his family, an inability to quite understand why someone would <span style="font-style: italic;">want </span>to be in the military, and confusion about whether we should be in Afghanistan at all. And then I heard something along the lines of "He was 34 and never married."<br /><br />And suddenly I could see his boyfriend, mourning and distraught, with no recognition from the military or the Marine's family, no inherited benefits, no flag folded into a triangle. I hope he is at least surrounded by his own group of friends and family, but if he is in the military too, it's possible that he is isolated, deep in a dark, lonely, miserable closet.<br /><br />Yes, it is possible that this particular Marine was a straight guy who just never married. But the scenario I describe above has happened to dozens if not hundreds if not thousands of people. The military should be ashamed.Wendy Casterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02736636055295848483noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-364291179591360226.post-70181439956170874442009-08-27T21:41:00.005-04:002009-08-27T21:49:08.486-04:00Spiderman on the Subway<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgcAvwCjcGzym5Lh4VuRx6Dtt72eRcWY37UCd5jizmFJ1S0AODTkEmIW7gbcImfDI_HfmFJnC14NtKzEb9ZWrj3HZP6UsMzuu_0BXC4gQE8NCeaGswzJbZ6yB0qMjEPpzUXqjNPWWj78rLG/s1600-h/08-27-09_1827.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 256px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgcAvwCjcGzym5Lh4VuRx6Dtt72eRcWY37UCd5jizmFJ1S0AODTkEmIW7gbcImfDI_HfmFJnC14NtKzEb9ZWrj3HZP6UsMzuu_0BXC4gQE8NCeaGswzJbZ6yB0qMjEPpzUXqjNPWWj78rLG/s400/08-27-09_1827.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5374825520630530210" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiJ5qAJY4D2A2a7fqw8qCK3f6J_9J8BmkA-N_dY65AM2POcWLioSn8c8dplZcezhqDp7y3sMb02jilu99LIXr0B87b9al6UwfWACSsCEltpv470umeWFXQhsv4jpspCJec6sLuzqkEl58lz/s1600-h/08-27-09_1826.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer; width: 256px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiJ5qAJY4D2A2a7fqw8qCK3f6J_9J8BmkA-N_dY65AM2POcWLioSn8c8dplZcezhqDp7y3sMb02jilu99LIXr0B87b9al6UwfWACSsCEltpv470umeWFXQhsv4jpspCJec6sLuzqkEl58lz/s400/08-27-09_1826.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5374824676181811410" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><br />I do love living in New York.Wendy Casterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02736636055295848483noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-364291179591360226.post-44037896349132464742009-08-20T11:28:00.002-04:002009-08-20T11:30:39.977-04:00WC: Barney Frank PSMany people have pointed out that Frank could have handled the exchange better, that he could have been more politic.<br /><br />I agree. All those people are right.<br /><br />But there is something incredibly pleasing in seeing an articulate, from-the-gut, honest response.Wendy Casterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02736636055295848483noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-364291179591360226.post-16614970101287662582009-08-20T09:09:00.001-04:002009-08-20T09:09:42.266-04:00WC: Thank You, Barney Frank<object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/nYlZiWK2Iy8&color1=0xb1b1b1&color2=0xcfcfcf&hl=en&feature=player_embedded&fs=1"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowScriptAccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/nYlZiWK2Iy8&color1=0xb1b1b1&color2=0xcfcfcf&hl=en&feature=player_embedded&fs=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowfullscreen="true" allowscriptaccess="always" width="425" height="344"></embed></object>Wendy Casterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02736636055295848483noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-364291179591360226.post-8821548523367579302009-08-07T13:10:00.009-04:002009-08-20T09:10:05.722-04:00WC: Here's the ThingAfter finishing a Saturday <span style="font-style: italic;">NY Times</span> crossword puzzle--the hardest of the week--I realized why I find crossword puzzles so satisfying: <span style="font-weight: bold;">the opportunity to be perfect</span>. I entered the final word, and there it was: done, correct, my neat little printing filling the neat little boxes, each letter in its right home.<br /><br />Pretty much everything else in life is annoyingly squishy. Work, writing, exercise, eating, dealing with people--none of them offer simple perfection.<br /><br />But crossword puzzles do.<br /><br />It's a beautiful thing.Wendy Casterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02736636055295848483noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-364291179591360226.post-82719027827083119892009-06-26T10:24:00.002-04:002009-08-20T09:10:29.860-04:00WC: Michael Jackson, Idol?It seems to me probable that Michael Jackson was a child molester. He was acquitted in a court of law, yes, but he also paid tens of millions of dollars to make other accusations go away. I imagine the children he molested must feel very lonely and furious today as they see their molester extolled as an idol and an icon.<br /><br />In our society, it is often seen as rude to speak ill of the dead. And the idea that someone is innocent til proven guilty is profoundly important. And all the celebrities who are celebrating his life may have genuinely loved him.<br /><br />But I'd like to ask them one question: Would they have left their children alone with him?Wendy Casterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02736636055295848483noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-364291179591360226.post-57545493768679843112009-06-22T16:58:00.001-04:002009-06-22T17:00:03.153-04:00WC: I'm Trying to Figure Out iGoggleAnd since I have this habit of just using programs and tools without actually reading the instructions, I'm not totally sure what I'm doing.<br /><br />But . . . if I did this correctly, this will show up on my iGoggle.<br /><br />Here goes.Wendy Casterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02736636055295848483noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-364291179591360226.post-81806966258987838302009-06-06T23:59:00.002-04:002009-06-07T00:15:05.313-04:00WC: So Much For My MemoryI've kept calendars since 1970. Since the mid-70s, they've been quite detailed.<br /><br />Since my memory has become kinda lousy, I decided a while ago to go through my calendars to make a chart of the movies and plays I've seen and the books I've read. I'm curious to see the lists--I think they'll be interesting.<br /><br />Well I finally just started this project and I've discovered that I can't even place the titles of some of the things I've seen and read. Did I ever really see a play called <span style="font-style: italic;">Debutante</span>?<br /><br />On top of that, I can't even identify who some of my friends were! That feels particularly weird.<br /><br />And, in light of the blog entry I just wrote about seeing <span style="font-style: italic;">All the President's Men</span> for the first time, it's galling to discover that it <span style="font-weight: bold;">wasn't</span> the first time. I saw it on August 15, 1976. I gave it two stars. (I saw it with someone named Charlie. I knew three Charlies when I was younger--Schwartz, Kazajian, and Famous--and I can't remember ever going to the movies with any of them!)<br /><br />Oy.Wendy Casterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02736636055295848483noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-364291179591360226.post-91778776353958757582009-05-28T02:03:00.001-04:002009-05-28T02:05:33.633-04:00AV: What She Said<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiN_dZpVGakwNTlFVW-OPLUXdeVfXnJDMuUzn7ZASykKAdgRi9k3zC-lk3I1pOaNrmDjvg6Mbvlz1cNJzGa40MY54jIexcRuLx4Ua0CRaIzIZEdSyA6_lNVv20d0cc7viF0vtwyBk4Kp810/s1600-h/cant_believe.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer; width: 300px; height: 400px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiN_dZpVGakwNTlFVW-OPLUXdeVfXnJDMuUzn7ZASykKAdgRi9k3zC-lk3I1pOaNrmDjvg6Mbvlz1cNJzGa40MY54jIexcRuLx4Ua0CRaIzIZEdSyA6_lNVv20d0cc7viF0vtwyBk4Kp810/s400/cant_believe.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5340751935889513298" border="0" /></a><br />The word from California.The Write Bunchhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03727478282179080964noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-364291179591360226.post-57103165535276710542009-05-16T12:27:00.003-04:002009-05-16T12:45:26.564-04:00WC: The Weirdness of Writing ReviewsI've been enjoying reviewing plays over at <a href="http://showshowdown.blogspot.com/">Show Showdown</a>, but I find myself frustrated by the customs of criticism. Reviews are supposed to be written without much reference to one's self, but, to me, the lack of the "I" makes it sound as though I am pontificating from on high. And who am I to pontificate? I'm just one person, and I'm often in the minority (eg, I disliked the generally adored new production of <span style="font-style: italic;">Our Town</span> and was impressed by <span style="font-style: italic;">The Singing Forest</span>, which my three co-audience members fled at the first intermission). Yet when I succumbed to writing in the "honest I," as in my reviews of <a href="http://showshowdown.blogspot.com/2009/05/everyday-rapture.html">Everyday Rapture</a> and <a href="http://showshowdown.blogspot.com/2009/05/mary-stuart.html">Mary Stuart</a>, the reviews seemed unprofessional and less well-written. When I went back to the "omniscient know-it-all," as in <a href="http://showshowdown.blogspot.com/2009/05/our-town.html">Our Town</a> and <a href="http://showshowdown.blogspot.com/2009/05/singing-forest.html">The Singing Forest</a>, the reviews came across as, well, real reviews.<br /><br />It's odd, really. Reviewers and critics can, and should, give reasons for their opinions, and certainly a knowledgeable writer can bring a particular insight to the table. But, ultimately, isn't it all just "I liked it" or "I didn't like it"? Is there any real difference between Ben Brantley and many other audience members other than he's in the <span style="font-style: italic;">Times </span>and we're not? Yet his opinions, his preferences, can seriously affect the future of a show and will remain accessible for decades in the archives of "the paper of record." In our culture, we appoint people as experts--or they appoint themselves--but too often rather than being genuine experts, they're just well-located and/or well-connected.Wendy Casterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02736636055295848483noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-364291179591360226.post-50654823225132117912009-05-06T23:21:00.004-04:002009-05-06T23:41:10.926-04:00WC: All The President's MenJust saw All the President's Men for the first time. (I missed many movies in the '70s. First I was in college, then I was doing theatre, and then I was--finally!--getting laid.) It's a fascinating movie, well made, but it relies on the viewer bringing a certain amount of knowledge to the table, which makes me wonder how long people will actually be watching it. But even without knowledge of Watergate, the viewer would still get to see many interesting things, such as these two:<br /><ul><li><span style="font-style: italic;">How much work everything was pre-Internet</span>. To try to find someone, Woodward goes through phone book after phone book. Every article is painstakingly typed and then painstakingly input into, what?, a linotype machine maybe? No interviews are recorded--notes are taken by hand. The lack of cell phones slows down communication immensely.<br /></li></ul><ul><li><span style="font-style: italic;">How much work is involved in investigating reporting</span>. Yes, there's less grunt work now, but it's still a labor-intensive 24/7 project requiring imagination, communication skills, a willingness to manipulate, the ability to figure out a puzzle without having all the pieces, and incredible stamina. I hope it doesn't become a lost art.</li></ul>The film features a wonderful array of actors in supporting and bit parts. I caught, for example, Steven Collins, Lindsay Crouse, Nicolas Coster, and Meredith Baxter but failed to identify Polly Holiday and Penny Fuller. (Victoria Clark and Alice Ripley were not in it, but I'm mentioning them so that my sister and my best bud will get Google alerts on this review. Hi Holly. Hi Susan.)<br /><br />I thought Robert Redford was wonderful (I'm not usually a fan), as was Dustin Hoffman (I am usually a fan). Jason Robards, who I always think of as relying on his gravelly voice too much, and also mumbling too much, relies on his gravelly voice too much and mumbles too much. At one point, I put on the closed captions to see what he was saying, but they hadn't understood him either, and the screen remained blank while he spoke.<br /><br />On a serious level, the big take-away for me is the reminder that the current despicable dishonesty of the Republican Party is nothing new. Sometimes I wonder how low they can possibly go, but this movie reminds me how low they have already gone. As David Byrne and Brian Eno wrote, "Same as it ever was, same as it ever was."Wendy Casterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02736636055295848483noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-364291179591360226.post-75954803146465719332009-04-20T23:10:00.002-04:002009-04-20T23:19:20.964-04:00DW: The ReckoningI did go to the funeral last week, and I am so glad that I did. It was wonderful to connect with my past and see people who I haven't seen in about 30 years. Time really does bend.<div><br /></div><div>The best part was hanging out with my friend's dad, who is the last parent standing. It was like being able to speak in a tribal language that you rarely have the chance to speak. I'm seriously thinking of going down to visit him in Florida with a video camera and just ask him questions for 3 days straight and see what comes out. I realized the other day that he is Burlesque's version of Robert Evans and "The Kid Stays In the Picture." The only way I can describe my delight is imagining yourself in a wax museum and seeing William Powell suddenly coming to life.</div><div><br /></div><div>Thanks AV for all your encouragement!</div>The Write Bunchhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03727478282179080964noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-364291179591360226.post-37244276802851582982009-04-18T01:52:00.003-04:002009-04-18T02:49:56.177-04:00AV: PSAs from the underbellyThanks everyone for your support for my personal endeavor of my own blog. I'd also like to take this opportunity to thank you as well for your indulgence of my three-part-harmony conversation in my recent post to this site. We all appreciated it.<br /><br />That said, I'm writing on my personal site: <a href="http://thiseffingblog.blogspot.com/">http://thiseffingblog.blogspot.com/</a> and keeping you posted here on that. I've got a few things out there and my goal is to post (almost) daily.<br /><br />Interestingly enough, some of what's showing up there amount to PSAs for the FoB (Friends of the Bereaved). I figure if I don't know what the hell I'm doing, you probably don't know either. So, yeah, I'm here to tell ya (in a teaser-go-visit-my-blog sort of way) ...<br /><br /><em><strong><u>"There's Good News and Bad News</u></strong><br />It occurred to me sometime during the last months of Aida's life that, in general, we just don't pay attention to the obvious: That "till Death Do Us Part" means that one of us is going to die before the other one. One of us is going to go first.</em> " <a href="http://thiseffingblog.blogspot.com/">Read more...</a><br /><br />And another thing. Life's interesting paradox continues: today I bought three wonderful little bunches of yellow and white daffodils ($1.29 a bunch at the local Trader Joe's). I came home, tended their little green stems with fresh cuts and fresh water, and placed them in a vase. Then, their thirsty bodies swelling in the deep of the vase, I finished the survey for the good folks at San Diego Hospice. The cable radio station was playing an old disco tune .. "If I can't have you, I don't want nobody baby."The Write Bunchhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03727478282179080964noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-364291179591360226.post-29044716359800528202009-04-14T15:51:00.003-04:002009-04-14T15:52:48.197-04:00WC: Netflix Understands Me!Based on my movie ratings, Netflix has developed the following category of recommendations for me:<br /><blockquote style="font-weight: bold;">Steamy Dramas Featuring a Strong Female Lead</blockquote>Boy, Netflix has my number!Wendy Casterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02736636055295848483noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-364291179591360226.post-82832742273025350532009-04-14T11:26:00.001-04:002009-04-14T11:26:58.941-04:00WC: Amazon Mess-UpThe Amazon mess-up is being fixed. How it happened is still not absolutely clear, but they admitted having made a "ham-fisted" error, and they've been very good with gay books in the past, so I'm inclined to accept it as "one of those things."<br /><br />My book is now being ranked again. It's the 280,445th best-selling book on Amazon! Don't mess with me.Wendy Casterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02736636055295848483noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-364291179591360226.post-12650983780082003472009-04-13T15:52:00.003-04:002009-04-13T16:05:06.864-04:00WC: Reproductive FreedomThe following is from an <a href="http://lesbianlife.about.com/od/famouslesbians/ig/Famous-Lesbian-Couples/Cat-and-Jennifer-Cora.htm">article </a>on Iron Chef Cat Cora and her significant other and their children. I would have to say that their ideas of reproductive freedom are on the far end of the, uh, speculum!<br /><blockquote>Cat and Jennifer have two sons Zoran and Caje. Both Jennifer and Cat are now pregnant with their third and fourth children. According to a press release from Cat Cora, Jennifer carried their first son, who she conceived through artificial insemination. Their second son was carried to term by Jennifer, but this time using Cat's embryo. Now both Cat and Jennifer are pregnant, Cat's pregnancy is the result of in-vitro fertilization with Jennifer's embryo. Jennifer was implanted with embryos from from both women, so the biological mother is unknown. All children have the same sperm donor.</blockquote>I really don't know what to think about this.<br /><br />On one hand, it's none of my business. On the other hand, they put out a press release, pretty much making it <span style="font-style: italic;">everyone's</span> business.<br /><br />And, on one hand, I really believe in people being open about life choices, as it normalizes different options and lets others know that there are many ways to live. On the other hand, I imagine that, once their kids hit middle school, they may feel that their moms released a bit <span style="font-style: italic;">too much information</span>.<br /><br />And, on one hand, I believe that everyone should have full reproductive freedom. On the other hand, doesn't this all seem, well, a bit much? And doesn't each level of technology (in vitro, carrying someone else's embryo, being implanted with multiple embryos) bring with it an extra risk?<br /><br />But, hey, God bless 'em, you know? And yay for freedom!Wendy Casterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02736636055295848483noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-364291179591360226.post-17855970306627846752009-04-13T13:35:00.005-04:002009-04-13T16:07:02.950-04:00WC: Some Personal Horn-Tooting<div style="text-align: right;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg_Ic4rXcMrnoYTxih7nQOxQdJvtcuN6Mm7TqwK27X9boyAFStrML2tBamZZRp-o7ia7_aFrwsIfQ-7tHdyfmBJ8IpzbK_5zcN0amzXPs9ZgjQefZLMJG1qK4fTqv3iYsr88yms21PLSmq5/s1600-h/new+lesbian+sex+book+cover.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; float: right; cursor: pointer; width: 154px; height: 200px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg_Ic4rXcMrnoYTxih7nQOxQdJvtcuN6Mm7TqwK27X9boyAFStrML2tBamZZRp-o7ia7_aFrwsIfQ-7tHdyfmBJ8IpzbK_5zcN0amzXPs9ZgjQefZLMJG1qK4fTqv3iYsr88yms21PLSmq5/s200/new+lesbian+sex+book+cover.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5324233163386984226" border="0" /></a>(Photo by Shilo McCabe.)<br /></div><br />There's some weirdness happening at Amazon.com, where lesbian, gay, bisexual, and transgendered books have been suddenly put into an "adult" ghetto where they are no longer ranked and are more difficult to find. I'm not going to write about that yet, because it is currently unclear if Amazon.com was hacked and how Amazon is going to respond to the situation.<br /><br />I did, however, note on Salon.com that my book (The Lesbian Sex Book), along with a number of other titles, was no longer being ranked. And someone with the screen name of Strawberry wrote a wonderful <a href="http://letters.salon.com/mwt/broadsheet/feature/2009/04/13/amazon_fail/permalink/719a27262d4dd3d5aeef87793e6d1143.html">response </a>to me that made my day:<br /><p></p><blockquote>Let me just throw a great big giant personal 'THANK YOU'! I bought my copy of "The Lesbian Sex Book" way back in college and I <i>adored</i> it. I feel all fangirl excited now!</blockquote>Aw, shucks.<br /><br /><br /><p></p>Wendy Casterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02736636055295848483noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-364291179591360226.post-76622275576703909122009-04-08T14:21:00.002-04:002009-04-08T14:21:38.396-04:00WC: Jerome Robbins Documentary<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj1LlFJAxRtGrBY0HcsGzTr_cbfs-18fI7uiASJv9-a9Oz-Hhcd1Q1CVCvMBpV7_1BP8HfD0kosnilbnuPnU9FOXA-PxEaCwlyZPssuolVK6iRfCoa-W8Jz1G9iwaxtAiHChGqqcTqwmi3p/s1600-h/jerome+robbins.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer; width: 137px; height: 200px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj1LlFJAxRtGrBY0HcsGzTr_cbfs-18fI7uiASJv9-a9Oz-Hhcd1Q1CVCvMBpV7_1BP8HfD0kosnilbnuPnU9FOXA-PxEaCwlyZPssuolVK6iRfCoa-W8Jz1G9iwaxtAiHChGqqcTqwmi3p/s200/jerome+robbins.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5322387421889456994" border="0" /></a><br />(<span class="credits">photo by Frederic Ohringer)<br /><br /></span>Broadway director-choreographer Jerome Robbins was a temperamental genius. People chose to put up with his nastiness because he challenged and inspired them to do better than their best--but few have nice things to say about him as a person. <span style="font-style: italic;">Jerome Robbins: Something to Dance To</span>, a 2009 PBS American Masters documentary, has a lot going for it: a fascinating story, interviews with smart and articulate artists, performance footage, and access to various interviews Robbins gave over the years. It's a solid introduction to, well, an American master.<br /><br />I do wish, however, that they hadn't put all the footage of Robbins dancing in slow motion, and I also wish they had let the people being interviewed talk more. In particular, in the DVD extras, I wish they hadn't divided people's interviews into thematic sections: for example, Austin Pendleton's comments are spread over four or five sections, and each has to be clicked on individually.<br /><br />And I mostly wish the documentary had a certain oomph to it. It just wasn't as interesting--to me at least--as I felt it could be.Wendy Casterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02736636055295848483noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-364291179591360226.post-19323347752994083682009-04-06T16:54:00.011-04:002009-04-06T18:40:31.839-04:00DW: To Go or Not To Go?About 6 months ago I connected (via Facebook) to a childhood friend who (along with her family) has a very significant place in my past and my psyche. When my mother was sick, I stayed with her family for several months, and her mother was someone I loved very much. In the 1960's she was young, glamorous, and reminded me of Samantha on Bewitched. She even had an adorable widow's peak. We would spend hours sitting in the kitchen talking with her about our 6th grade adventures while she ironed her satin sheets--sipping a can of Black Label beer and smoking her Kools.<br /><br />One of the many highlights of this friendship were the serial sleepovers we would have at each other's house. Though we were in the same class at the same school for many years, our "day" life was very different than our "night" life. In school, we hung out with different people with some overlap, but sleepovers were different. We would watch "Chiller Theater" or Johnny Carson, or any adult'ish movie we deemed relevant and interesting. We would play Barbra Streisand albums and soundtracks to Broadway shows and movies, singing passionately into our respective hair brushes. Goldfinger was a particularly vivid number that we spent hours choreographing and concluded, in our collective 9-year old perspective, that it would be a great strip tease song.<br /><br />My parents' friends were people that didn't set their alarms for 7:00 am. They travelled the country playing in or managing burlesque houses where they worked with people like Phil Silvers, Danny Lewis (Jerry's father), Abbott and Costello, and many others. It was very Guys and Dolls, and they had a ritual known as "night lunch." This was something I looked forward to during the sleepovers. Night lunch was something you ate after the last show, around midnight. It could be mussels or a ham sandwich, eaten in your hotel room or a nearby bar. When our parents became suburban they thankfully didn't abandon this wonderful habit, which meant cold spaghetti or leftover meatloaf was always a possibility. I remember staying at the Paramount Hotel in New York in 1967 with my parents, walking to the grocery store around the corner to get bread, cheese, bologna, and fruit. We always had an ice bucket in the room, with a small jar of Guilden's mustard nearby.<br /><br />My friend and I eventually went our separate ways for high school and college, and haven't seen each other since 1977.<br /><br />I noticed she hadn't been on Facebook for a few weeks and had a feeling that something was very wrong. I poked around and saw a Wall message that a friend had posted that said "you and your mother are in my prayers." Shortly thereafter she wrote me the devastating news...her mother's lingering cough turned out to be stage 4 lung cancer. She said that the X-rays looked like a snow storm.<br /><br />I decided that I needed to acknowledge her mother's presence in my younger life, and sent her a Teddy Bear last week telling her how much I appreciated her being there for me, ie, being a mother when I didn't have one, and how her tuna fish sandwiches are one of the strongest sensory memories that I have of my childhood. Her secret was putting in a hard boiled egg, but it wasn't too eggy, it was just perfect. I received an email late last night that contained her obituary and then a note from my friend saying that she had received the bear and was very touched.<br /><br />My dilemma is whether or not to go to the funeral tomorrow. It's 3 hours and a lifetime away. Part of me wants to see everyone and part of me doesn't want my memories tainted by the present. What is there to say after 30 years and all of the sleepovers? My concern is that I don't want to feel like I sometimes feel with my family, ie, having to regress to my 1972 vocabulary of words and experience in order to connect and get through the event at hand. Maybe I'm thinking too much about it, but I'm apprehensive...maybe I should just send flowers and a loving note and suggest that we connect in a less intense set of circumstances.<br /><br />She is the last parent to leave this world for the next, and it feels a little lonelier knowing that she is no longer here to make those wonderful tuna fish sandwiches.The Write Bunchhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03727478282179080964noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-364291179591360226.post-24644100433379036402009-04-04T16:15:00.006-04:002009-04-04T17:56:34.231-04:00AV: Changes*Backstory: On February 3rd, my beloved wife, Aida Mancillas, took her final breaths on this earth as I lay draped across her chest. Accompanied through the long night by Aida's sister, brother-in-law, and one of the angels from San Diego Hospice, I attended to the sacred duty of helping my love move through the thin veil from here to there. The 60 days since her death have been ... almost indescribable.*<br /><br />Dear friends,<br /><br />I'm sorry I haven't been here for a while. It's been a mix of things. In the dark and obscured swamp in which I exist these days, I have been unsure about what or where and whether to post anything.<br /><br />I have decided that yes, I will. And that I will do so most likely on a separate blog. Or maybe both together. I am undecided.<br /><em>(Please, I invite your opinions on that question: let me know what you think. A different blog? This blog? Both together with duplicate posts? I really want to hear what you have to say.)</em><br /><br />Part of the inner conversation is ongoing between a few of my inner voices. It goes something like this:<br /><br /><strong>AV</strong>: No one else is writing about this grieving thing in the queer community. WTF?<br /><strong>Dolly</strong>: Yeah, but why are *you* the one who has to do it?<br /><strong>Deirdre</strong>: Yeah, and who even wants to hear your whining? The world is depressing enough and we have our own problems.<br /><strong>AV</strong>: Thank you for sharing, but I think that maybe my speaking honestly about my experience, maybe just maybe that might give others the permission to talk honestly about it. Even if it's only with themselves.<br /><strong>Dolly</strong>: Okay okay, I get it, but why do you have to be so *public* about it? Do you really want that much information out there about you? Haven't you heard about online crime?<br /><strong>AV</strong>: I know. I've thought about that. It's the second biggest reason why I've been silent for so long here. The first, of course, is Deirdre.<br /><strong>Deirdre</strong>: What?!? What did I do?? Everybody always blames me! I'm really just trying to take up as little room as possible here, y'know ... and *still* I get blamed ..<br /><strong>AV</strong>: No no, Deirdre ... what I meant was that I have the same concerns you do. I'm not so sure that anyone cares about what I have to say either. I mean, it's not like I'm posting the daily contents of my refrigerator or anything, but you're right, people have their own problems. What do they care if I'm grieving the death of my wife?<br /><strong>Dolly</strong>: well ... maybe ...<br /><strong>AV</strong>: Exactly. So I think that's what I'm going to do. I keep my journal, of course, but I can't find much of anything online or in print that speaks to *me* or to the unknown number of LGBT folks who are stumbling in the darkness just like me.<br /><strong>Dolly</strong>: So what are you going to do?<br /><strong>AV</strong>: I think I'm going to keep my own blog and post every few days about what's up for me, for the friends I have who are in different stages of this journey I'm on, and the resources I discover along the way that can help the next person. Or someone who's suffering just like I am.<br /><strong>Deirdre</strong>: Are you at least going to disguise your name?<br /><strong>AV</strong>: Not sure yet. Part of me would like to, but I feel it's important to talk fully about my wife, Aida, and to do otherwise would be to dishonor her and her memory. To do that, I need to be "out."<br /><strong>Dolly</strong>: Well, whatever. If you want to do this, okay, but just don't drag us into it.<br /><strong>Deirdre</strong>: Yeah, good luck with that.<br /><strong>AV</strong>: Thanks you guys.<br /><br />so, that said, here's the link to my first post (some of you will recognize the url):<br /><a href="http://thiseffingblog.blogspot.com/">http://thiseffingblog.blogspot.com/</a><br /><br />And an excerpt:<br /><em>It has occurred to me that no one is writing handbooks for us queer folk on how to manage this thing. I mean, fer crissakes, we aren't even sure how to do weddings, let alone funerals and every single bone crushing day afterwards.</em><br /><em></em><br />let me know what you think. Dolly and Deirdre are really interested.The Write Bunchhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03727478282179080964noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-364291179591360226.post-89941008067623852552009-03-23T13:08:00.001-04:002009-03-23T13:09:52.623-04:00WC: A Little Night MusicMy <a href="http://showshowdown.blogspot.com/2009/03/little-night-music_23.html">review</a> is up at <a href="http://showshowdown.blogspot.com/">Show Showdown</a>.Wendy Casterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02736636055295848483noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-364291179591360226.post-39011275992168200702009-03-05T14:07:00.001-05:002009-03-05T14:10:04.211-05:00WC: New Review PostedI've reviewed <a href="http://showshowdown.blogspot.com/2009/03/happiness.html">Happiness </a>at <a href="http://showshowdown.blogspot.com/">Show Showdown</a> ("I feel that the show has potential. I guess I just can't rule out those bloodlines.")Wendy Casterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02736636055295848483noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-364291179591360226.post-985702991649168592009-03-04T09:37:00.002-05:002009-03-04T09:39:00.425-05:00WC: God of CarnageI've reviewed God of Carnage at <a href="http://showshowdown.blogspot.com/">Show Showdown</a> ("much of the audience gave the show a standing O--unless they were standing for Tony Soprano, which is completely possible").Wendy Casterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02736636055295848483noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-364291179591360226.post-14165298195864423392009-03-01T22:59:00.002-05:002009-03-01T23:06:30.423-05:00WC: Good TV Shows to NetflixA friend asked for some recommendations of what TV shows to rent, so I made her a list. I thought it might be of interest to some of you out there.<br /><br />Some background first: although I own a TV, it is not hooked up to cable or an attenna. For me, it is a DVD-delivery system. As a result, I actually know very little about TV. I've never even seen a reality show.<br /><br />As a result, I rent DVDs based on other people's suggestions, and the following list includes shows that at least one other person (my sister, a friend, etc) told me to see and that I liked as well. So you're actually getting a few people's recommendations here.<br /><ul><li>The Wire--drug gangs, cops, newspapers, schools--an entire city brilliantly and heartbreakingly depicted. Could be a strong competitor for best show ever. Not an easy show to watch, however.</li><li>Slings & Arrows--Canadian, three seasons, 6 eps per season, each season following a season of a small theatre group doing Shakespeare--Hamlet, R&J, King Lear. Funny, moving, sexy, smart.</li><li>Once and Again--newly married couple deals with exes, blended families, etc. Smart, funny, moving, psychologically astute. Unfortunately only 2 seasons are out on DVD. Very well-acted, and everyone is gorgeous, which works both for the show (they're fun to look at) and against it (hard to believe that people that good looking really have problems!)</li><li>Sports Night--smart office comedy that takes place at a TV sports show.</li><li>Northern Exposure--Jewish doctor ends up in small town in Alaska.</li><li>Carnivale--a traveling carnival with people with actual powers, including an ongoing serious fight between good and evil with all sorts of weirdness. Unfortunately, it ended after 2 years, and they had to rush the ending--they really could/should have gone another year.</li><li>Pushing Daisies--bizarre, unusual comedy about a man who can bring dead people back to life by touching them. Very quirky, very mannered. If it works for you, it's fabulous. If it doesn't, it's painful. It worked for me.</li><li>Samantha Who--another quirky comedy, this one about a woman coming back from amnesia. She used to be a bitch; now she wants to be nice. It's not everyone's cup of tea, but I really like it.</li><li>Heroes--regular people with superpowers try to save the world. The first season was quite entertaining--I hear the next two kinda suck. But the first season stands alone very nicely.</li><li>24: each season covers 24 hours in the life of a, what?, agent, spy, mega-butch-he-knows-everything govt guy. Violent, edgy, fabulous interesting characters, disturbingly pro-torture, addicting. (I've stopped watching, but I admit to quite enjoying a few years of it.)</li></ul>Wendy Casterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02736636055295848483noreply@blogger.com1